Element of Blue

A gentle shout inside my head
Urging me to get out of  the bed
Quickly I got up, confused, whose voice was it?
I didn't know, but it left me in tears
Just a false nostalgia perhaps?
Dazed for awhile, a moment of stillness before the nightmares caught up again

Then they came back
And suddenly a yearning for a long walk
The first mile, I was hesitating
The second mile, I looked behind but didn't see anything
The third, I no longer wanted to come back
So I stopped thinking completely and kept moving on
My steps became a reflex
Trudging along the narrow broken asphalt road unconsciously
Hours or maybe even days had passed, I lost track of time

"Hey, stop!"
It's that voice again, but louder and also gentler
But that time I finally remembered, that the voice was yours
Surge of feelings shredded my being, I was aching
I screamed profanity as the pain pulled me back to reality
I realized that I was almost at the end of the line

What the hell was I doing?
So I stopped
Then I sat down
Then I slightly looked up
And right there at that very moment, I saw a yarn made out of light